Hi guys. Today I am doing something I haven't done in a really long time (besides blogging).
I want to share my story as I know there are few that share it and understand my point of view.
I have always been thin, and small. I finished grade twelve on a mere 28kgs and wore kids clothes usually around 10 yrs. Though this is natural for me, I was extremely unhappy and insecure. I have never been happy with me or my looks as I thought they were the same thing.
During the last few years I have come to a few realizations. Someone can love me for who I am. Not everyone will like me and that's ok too. I have to do what's right for me. I can do a lot more than I give myself credit for.
A year and a half ago I started with weight training. I haven't gained much weight only about 10 kegs after having my two boys, however I have come to learn how to change what I don't like and work on making myself happy. I am still what many people consider too thin but for me I am finally at a healthy and stable weight.
I am still the person everyone stares at when I wear something tight or short but at least now I don't want to run and hide all the time. I am still one of those that a lot of girls hate on, but again I can now face them too.
I still struggle with people trying to force feed me, but I am now taking that as a old "boere thing" where food is on the table almost 24/7.
So I guess I am writing this to say don't give up. I wanted to give up weight training a hundred times but my trainer kept pushing me and I am finally starting to be happy with my physical appearance. It does take time but we need to learn to love ourselves. It took me way too long and I am not where I want to be yet but I will get there. If you have a goal, whatever it is stick to it. YOU ARE WORTH IT! Don't let other peoples opinions stop you. You might just be surprised about how little it actually is.
Today I am a lot stronger, healthier and happier with myself than I have ever been. I can actually lift my boys without getting hurt or telling them they are too heavy and my eldest is 8.
Hope this provides someone with some encouragement. I have not retread this piece or edited. It comes straight from one of my closets in my heart.
