My Story

Hi guys.  Today I am doing something I haven't done in a really long time (besides blogging).

I want to share my story as I know there are few that share it and understand my point of view.

I have always been thin, and small. I finished grade twelve on a mere 28kgs and wore kids clothes usually around 10 yrs.   Though this is natural for me, I was extremely unhappy and insecure. I have never been happy with me or my looks as I thought they were the same thing.

During the last few years I have come to a few realizations. Someone can love me for who I am.  Not everyone will like me and that's ok too. I have to do what's right for me. I can do a lot more than I give myself credit for.

A year and a half ago I started with weight training. I haven't gained much weight only about 10 kegs after having my two boys, however I have come to learn how to change what I don't like and work on making myself happy.  I am still what many people consider too thin but for me I am finally at a healthy and stable weight.

I am still the person everyone stares at when I wear something tight or short but at least now I don't want to run and hide all the time. I am still one of those that  a lot of girls hate on, but again I can now face them too.

I still struggle with people trying to force feed me, but I am now taking that as a old "boere thing" where food is on the table almost 24/7.

So I guess I am writing this to say don't give up. I wanted to give up weight training a hundred times but my trainer kept pushing me and I am finally starting to be happy with my physical appearance. It does take time but we need to learn to love ourselves. It took me way too long and I am not where I want to be yet but I will get there. If you have a goal, whatever it is stick to it. YOU ARE WORTH IT!  Don't let other peoples opinions stop you.  You might just be surprised about how little it actually is.

Today I am a lot stronger, healthier and happier with myself than I have ever been. I can actually lift my boys without getting hurt or telling them they are too heavy and my eldest is 8.

Hope this provides someone with some encouragement. I have not retread this piece or edited. It comes straight from one of my closets in my heart.

Good vs evil.

We have all been taught about good and evil. We know what is right and what is wrong.

Somehow in society these lines have become very blurred. This blog is something I feel very strongly about and it is a very personal piece, so please bear with me.

We were taught that pulling rude faces or swearing or to kill is wrong. To hurt someone or say bad things are wrong. Yet how easily do we judge or scold or talk about someone behind their back. It has become the norm.

Now what I really want to discuss is how the evil in our everyday lives, have become normal and we do not flinch when someone sings a song that insults Jesus or wears a demonic outfit. We do not flinch when we watch horror movies or see accidents or dead people on the news.  We have become so desensitized that even our children are seeing and hearing these things, on a daily basis and we wonder why they have become violent.

I can name lots of examples but I will just list a few, Lady Gaga’s has 2 songs, Fernando and Judas. Comparing their meanings and words next to each other shows us how it has become acceptable in society, that demonic powers are visible and blatant. I know there are many who disagree with me here, but the proof is in the pudding. This is not just about Christian religion (which I am) but most religions preach the same values.

We need to sensor our lives as; we were censored when we were raised. We need to watch the films with our kids to see the whole story with them. Lots of Animated movies these days have a PG rating of 10, and we have 5 year olds watching PG 10 movies or WWE, and we wonder why we have become a violent society.

Many children are not ready for WWE or Casper or Scooby doo at such a young age. WE have children staying awake at night afraid of ghosts; we have teens having sex by 13 and parents by the age of 16. I feel somewhere we as society may have sacrificed our humanity and morals for the lights, riches and promises “Hollywood” offers, which in the end leads to the damned.

The war is waging and we are not paying attention! Be vigilant and protect yourself, your mind, your heart and your children!

Please consider this carefully and feel free to discuss it if you want more examples.